So I’m back, after some terrible days that actually came as a surprise to me, I’m still here. Some good has happened since then, some bad also, normal stuff. This week I missed 2 days of college, I wanted to get rested to get through the next weeks, and I did. I think this was a big deal, not dealing with college right now. The day that I did went to college I talked to my friends, and I was kind of direct about how I wanted to act. Continue reading “A New Day + New Cover.”
Last days or weeks (time passes and I can’t really tell how much has passed) has been absolute hell for me. I can go into details of what exactly happened, but doesn’t really matter right? What matters in the end is how did it made me feel.
I hate that sometimes I fall back to my unhealthy patterns, but most of the time I feel like I can’t help it. Since college started 2 weeks ago (feels like a year) I’ve reached both highs and lows with anxiety, the constant invites to events and socializing is draining me, I’ve reached highs where I think I can get through this, it’s been really hard for me.
I got through last week, proud of some things, and not proud of some others, the thing I’ll look forward the most this week is my session with my therapist. I want to get through another week, and another, and another…
How far would you go to change things, to become someone you like, to keep your head above water, to simply survive? Is giving up simply wearing off along the way or the sudden realization that the road is not worth it?
I’m not able to keep up here, with all the stuff that’s been going on since the re-start of college. Anxiety attacks, pills, exhaustion, the same drill, the things I expected, but harder. Every thought feels like a wall, a barrier keeping me from my life. And I wish these pills could stop time, for just one fucking second. Continue reading “Time Is Slipping From Me.”
This post is related to mental health and you guys will understand why. I think a lot of people are debating and seeing how social media is bad for you, but I think a LOT of people don’t understand HOW bad it is.